Wednesday, November 25, 2015
The most successful people I know are passionate about something, helping others. When you devote your life to helping others, regardless of how much return you get, life tends to make a lot more sense.
There are still a lot of things that don't make sense; hate, greed, war, etc. But when a person invests time, energy and money into making the world a better place, a sense of self worth is born.
I was talking to a friend and we were discussing depression. I mentioned that I deal with depression. I have for a long time. I remember back to the uber conservative Christian college that I graduated from. They told me it was demons oppressing me. I spent so many nights on my knees, "fighting" asking God to fight the demons, asking for forgiveness for whatever I did. It didn't work. Some would blame God for not helping me. I blame the teachers for not helping me.
15 yrs later, I have worked through all of the symptoms and have figured out the root of the issue. Lack of nurturing and poor roll modeling are contributors.
I don't have all of the answers, but I believe that I serve a power that is greater than me. I have been given the options to look at myself, change and become a better person. The wife says that I have been successful.
But guess what? I still get depressed. Knowing the triggers, I am now more aware of when and why. The neighbor yelling at me and blaming me for everything brought back a flood of memories. Being able to identify that, helps me work through the feelings and emotions and get my head on straight again. One thing I have noticed though is that my depression is similar to a cold. One day I'm sluggish and tired. The next I'm down. And then, it takes a couple of days to feel back to normal. Sunshine and fresh air definitely help, but in reality, it just takes time.
Why am I sharing such personal info? Because I know a lot of you are going through something similar. You don't even have to tell me, I can see it in your eye, hear it in your voice.
Life is tough and we have to stick together. Draft off of each other.
Posted by Stephen at 8:16 AM