Tuesday, July 28, 2015
And that brings me to my point. I'm tired of failing. Life consists of failing and that's fine, stuff happens. But if I convince myself that I can do something and consistently push past my limits with risk to life and limb, there when be a time when things don't turn out so well. And the fun is greatly diminished. I'm not saying I'm never going to compete again, because I'm sure there will be a time.
But for now, I'm going back to enjoying the ride.
After the first 2 hrs of ORAMM, I was finally able to settle in to a rythym and enjoy the scenery. Enjoy the ride. It didn't even bother me that I don't have the skill to ride some of the tech and switchbacks on Heartbreak Ridge later in the day. It didn't bother me that I had no idea where I was in the group. (the kid was convinced that I was in second or third in the ss cat!)
I feel like I have finally turned a corner and proven to myself what I am capable of. I feel like I've shown the kid what someone can accomplish with hard work and dedication. I hope that ideal will stick with him through life. I feel like I can go out and ride, epic or not, and simply enjoy being on the bike.
I'm looking forward to Monster CX and some bikepacking adventures that I have planned. Its gonna be a good time!
But for now, I'm going sailing!
Posted by Stephen at 7:41 AM