I've been dealing with some relationship issues (not with the wife, she is awesome, just for the record) for the past 8 months. My intentions were good, and still are. I simply tried to express my feelings, express how the other party was making me feel. And I did just that. But, for some reason, it was not received as intended. Then things got quickly out of hand.
Fast forward 8 months later, after lots of stress, pondering, and trying to figure out what to do. In the past month or so, I came to the realization, that anger is not the driving emotion behind the intent. And I am not angry now. For me, in this situation, it is sadness that prevails. Sad for broken relationships. Sad that I tried to do what was right and things fell apart.
Then as I was cruising through the woods, I distinctly heard the voice in my head say: " This is not about them, this is about you. Let it go". To which I responded " WHAT? Let it GO?" And the voice said " Yes, let it go!!".
And so, I let it go. I have learned a whole lot about myself and the positive things I am capable of doing. And yes, the voice is correct, this has been more about me than the others. It is interesting sometimes what happens when I set out to help someone else, and I end up growing through the process.
As I pedaled back towards home on the pavement, I felt like the light at the end of the tunnel had grown brighter. That I was going to be able to move past this circumstance and focus on what lies ahead.
It's a good day.
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