A lot going on in my little head right now. Besides the fact that its that time of year when memories pop up and try to bring me down, the demons in my mind telling me that I'm bound to fail so why try. I keep turning my focus to the positive. Its not always easy. I have so many friends in the same boat. Trying to figure this life out, one step at a time. Why do I keep trying?
I'll tell you what keeps me going. Knowing that I am created for a purpose, to love. Knowing that a power greater than me is in control and has an ultimate plan: to restore creation to a pre- destruction mode. I believe in a God who loves and provides for us. I don't believe in the god that so many churches teach about, the legalistic, fire and brimstone, you are going to hell if you screw up god. I believe in a God who has created me to love, to care for the fatherless and widows. to look out for my neighbors.
My life is good, and I can't take the credit for that.