My brain won't stop. I'm not sure if it is just a bad habit or the way I am wired. I second guess everything in my head. I could be having the time of my life and I question whether I am having the time of my life. I need to turn it off, and relax. And that was the focus of today's ride. Breathe the cold mountain air, smell the forest, enjoy the view.
I took the kid to Best Buy last night. He finally saved enough money to purchase a new iPod Touch. He has been saving and researching for close to a year. Totally proud of the kid. But, then I stressed him out. What, on the surface, felt to me like helping him make a solid decision, led to him second guessing his purchase. Good grief. That is not a trait I want to pass on. He felt good about his decision and had planned ahead to make it happen. I need to let that go.
What it boils down to is lack of trust, worry and anxiety. I'm supposed to let go of anxiety: "be anxious for nothing". That also means letting go of control. Crap, if I'm not in control...... actually, I'll be better off. But I need to practice living like this. Easier said than done, but I'm gonna try. It will free up a ton of mind space.