Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Aid Station #2- already hot.
As hard as I try to be humble, the ego still creeps in and tells me how great I am, when really I am not. Someone commented that having to quit a race is a huge blow to the ego. And that is exactly where my head was spinning yesterday. My body was fine, except for a lingering headache. I didn't want to sell my bikes and actually wanted to ride yesterday, just didn't have time. It was my ego. I convinced myself that I could do it, and even left a little room for failure, but didn't focus on it.
I think that is how it should be though. If I spent my time focusing on how I would fail, what I would do next etc, there would be so much wasted energy. My focus was on the goal and I do not regret that.
We have been teaching Jubal to "never give up". I realized when I pulled the plug, how difficult it was going to be to tell him that that was not entirely the way to go. Actually, the telling part is not that hard, I was hoping that he would comprehend.
I had a conversation with a friend who said this, "He also needs to know that you must count the cost . Having a living dad is better than a dead one . When you have loved ones depending you ; discretion is the wise part of valor".
Posted by My name is Stephen at 7:21 AM