Aid Station #2- already hot.
As hard as I try to be humble, the ego still creeps in and tells me how great I am, when really I am not. Someone commented that having to quit a race is a huge blow to the ego. And that is exactly where my head was spinning yesterday. My body was fine, except for a lingering headache. I didn't want to sell my bikes and actually wanted to ride yesterday, just didn't have time. It was my ego. I convinced myself that I could do it, and even left a little room for failure, but didn't focus on it.
I think that is how it should be though. If I spent my time focusing on how I would fail, what I would do next etc, there would be so much wasted energy. My focus was on the goal and I do not regret that.
We have been teaching Jubal to "never give up". I realized when I pulled the plug, how difficult it was going to be to tell him that that was not entirely the way to go. Actually, the telling part is not that hard, I was hoping that he would comprehend.
I had a conversation with a friend who said this, "He also needs to know that you must count the cost . Having a living dad is better than a dead one . When you have loved ones depending you ; discretion is the wise part of valor".
2 comments:
Yeah, family is more important for sure. Mine are 5 and 2. And I could've been the one in the ER had I kept going. I wanted to race it this year, go balls out, and I totally crapped out on CC, so I hammered it to the top for some extra training before the heat exhaustion really set in, then chilled at the top a few and bailed back down CC to my car.
Let's face it, that race is miserable. The ride is beautiful and I've never had problems riding it solo w/only my camelback as an aid station, however, I've raced 4 times now and only finished once back in '03 and then I finished 33th overall. Hot dawg I was stoked. But it was 70 degrees and drizzly rain w/thick gray clouds all day. The CC aid was misty and HB ridge perfect. The other years have been hot and sucked a$$
10 years, maybe it's time to switch it up. I vote for an Autumn rescheduling of this event. All in favor....
Jeremy
I hear ya, 5 yrs ago was my first, it felt like air conditioning at the top of CC and all along the parkway! I think I'll be volunteering next year.
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