Tuesday, January 29, 2013
In the past 2 months, already pushing through several challenges, I have been coming to grips with the reality that I might not be programed to win. I'm not sure why, but that inner drive to sacrifice everything is simply not there. Actually, I think its there, it is just supressed by other things in life. Things like spending time with my wife and kid. I skipped two major workouts this weekend, in trade for fun time with the family.
Some would say that I was sacrificing training time and that my fitness was suffering. I say I'm not willing to sacrifice that much family time and have my relationships suffer. Its a balance, really, and I have to remind myself to stop comparing myself to others. I have to stop trying to stand on top and be the best.
Instead, I need to focus on my personal goals. There will be plenty of time later this season that I do sacrifice that family time and head out on a big (hopefully) adventure.
So, my goals are changing, or rather, I am realizing what I am capable of. While it would be great to stand on the podium, I'll keep doing what I'm doing, enjoying my family, then riding my bike. That sounds like a winning combo to me.
Posted by Stephen at 6:38 AM