Self care, self improvement, self aware.... becoming a better person requires a lot. Breaking the negative cycles and habits that were ingrained from child hood, requires a lot. A lot of thought, a lot of work, a lot of new habits and new focus. I've been doing that, to the nth degree, but suddenly a though crosses my mind. When am I good enough? When will it be enough? In my desperation to be the best dad, husband, neighbor, I am now stressing myself out trying to improve.
And then it dawns on me. I have to take a break. I have to relax. I have to be. I have to enjoy the work that has been done. I have to be who I am and be who I have become. I have worked hard, and the change is obvious (as reported by my wife).
Is there still work to do? Sure, but for a period, for a season, I can relax and know that I have worth, that I have purpose and that I can enjoy the freedom that has been given to me.
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